Sharing a simple moment today Thursday 15th November 2012.
My Mac tells me it is 16.54
It is dark outside my window: I haven’t yet drawn the curtains. All the windows in the house are closed to keep the sharp November chill out.
I can hear the boys talking downstairs and Pepsi is breathing softly behind me. My Mac is whirring, the radiator in my room is gurgling, as is its will.
My mind is occupied by the Endoscopy I am having tomorrow. I confess to being extremely anxious, not so much of the outcome as one way or other my problem will be fixed I am sure. It is the procedure that scares me. No matter how softly I tell myself, the information leaflet tells me, Paul tells me, my colleagues tell me “it will be OK” my mind won’t let go of the fear.
I am physically hurting as well today. Last night I had a really bad attack during the night: I was so very close to calling the paramedics but with the help of some music, some medication, a pile of pillows, the silky soft fur of my Pepsi lying close by and Paul stroking my back I was able to stay home.
Today of course I was unable to work. I stayed in bed until all the pain had passed, around lunchtime.
I spent a few hours this afternoon resting quietly trying to think lovely thoughts but the only thing that distracts me today is some craft. I am thankful for an absorbing hobby and for Alexa for having this lovely idea.
Writing down my thoughts, and fears is so cathartic.
17.04.
Sorry to hear you have been having so much pain Miriam….and I’ll be thinking about you tomorrow
Alison xx
Oh, dear – you poor thing! I am sorry to hear of your pain, and I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow too, I do hope it’s a smooth process and that you feel calm xx
Miriam, I am so touched that you have felt able to post when feeling so unwell and coping with the aftermath of such pain – and also moved that somehow writing about it so vividly has helped… I will be thinking of you especially tomorrow and looking out for news over the weekend. Sending warmest good wishes …
Good luck Miriam, I hope the procedure goes well and that they get to the cause of your pain – it sounds as though you’ve been having a rough time. Take care, Amyx
Poor thing, I do hope all has gone ok for you today Miriam and that the pain subsided for you, stay positive and focus on being well again 🙂 x
I hope your procedure went well, Miriam! I often find that writing really helps me through worrisome times as well. Take care of yourself! xo
Sending lots of healing thoughts your way. I love this meme; such beautiful thoughts from you.
Rinda
I do hope that all is well and you are now home resting. It is cathartic to write things down, especially when we are really concerned about something and you have shared your Moment so beautifully.
Thinking of you x
Hope that the colonoscopy went well and that you are now home, resting and not in pain. Good to record the bad moment so you can be grateful they are over.
Reading this a few days later. Hope the endoscopy went well, and that your pain has subsided. ((HUGS))