Tuesday 15th January 2013
It is 21:23 according to my Mac.
I have just come by my computer to do some work on my Blog. I have a post to do, and my project 365 pictures to file and then all of a sudden Alexa popped into my mind. It is time to record a Simple Moment for January.
It is dark and extremely cold outside tonight with snow forecast for tomorrow but it is warm and cosy in my room and in the house.
The lovely smell of macaroni cheese is drifting up from the kitchen. It is Ben’s supper, he has just come in from work and taken it out of the oven. Our cauliflower cheese was beautiful earlier. I don’t like macaroni and Ben doesn’t like cauliflower!
I have just spoken to Lotta, she is coming for a visit the week after next. She is having a tough time with exams at the moment. I do so love her coming to visit.
I have lots of things on my mind.
This might turn in to ‘Morning Pages’ but in the evening!
I worked from home today and got loads done. I am concerned about the amount of paperwork I have to do before I retire in less than four weeks, but after my marathon today I have broken the back of it and hopefully I will sleep better tonight.
I am thinking so much about work; I keep asking Paul if I’m doing the right thing. Of course I am but I feel nervous and I have no idea why. I suppose it is change.
It will be a big change in my life, but I need to do this. I need to get well and concentrate on taking care of myself, having more energy to support Paul and maybe even clean the house! Perhaps best not to overdo it straight away Miriam.
We watched a film called ‘Love Can Build a Bridge’ tonight and now I have the song in my head. I don’t mind really, it is a lovely song and much better than the one I had in my head last week. Don’t even mention that!
I am thinking of getting an iPad. Maybe a retirement present to myself? I need to talk to Ben about it. Of course I don’t need one but it would be nice wouldn’t it?
I was at the doctors yesterday for bloods, my diabetes is out of control. I am very thirsty and constantly sleepy. On the up side I have re-discovered Badoit. It is wonderful for this terrible thirst I have.
I can hear my boys talking, the sound of their voices is drifting up the stairs. It is a wonderful sound only bettered by the sound of their laughter.
When I write that I can hear them talking or laughing I am always reminded of my girlhood dream: I wanted a home of my own and my own family. It is a very strange but clear feeling, almost as though I am having the thought or dream right now.
I am so fortunate, I am happy right now and I am loved. I am also really tired and will go to bed once I have tidied this up. I do hope this isn’t too much of a ramble but it’s how I am feeling right now.
Thank you Alexa; for enabling me to take a few minutes to be quiet, to think and to write.
21:37
Alexa at Trimming the Sails will have some links to lots of Simple Moments from around the world. Drop by if you have a moment?
changing away from full time work is such a big change of life, no wonder you are feeling unease at what next. It took me a good year to adapt to the change, and I stil see it as a work in progress. Best wishes for your health. Fabulous digi image
I think your simple moment was just perfect. Taking a moment to reflect on where we are, where we’ve been and where we’re going is so important. It reminds us of how blessed we are. I love this idea of “simple moments.” I’ll have to pop over to Alexa’s and find out more about it. Thanks for sharing yours!
You’re bound to feel a bit nervous – and I guess excited at the same time! More space and time to take care of yourself instead of thinking about work will pay healthful dividends, I’m sure of it 🙂
I love the way you have shared your Moment, Miriam. You are heading towards a life-changing stage in your life and are bound to be anxious. These steps take time to master but the benefits will be huge. Health is the most important thing and I am hoping you can take the time to be well as you move on and new experiences.
So many layers to your writing, Miriam … weaving in and out through each other, like the colours on that striking digital image. I hope the shape of the next few weeks will settle into something which points to enriched life and health for you… Excited for you too! And Lotta’s visit sounds like something to really look forward to :).
It sounds like your moment led you to some important revelations!
Rinda
Change is always both exciting and nerve-wracking. Time to take care of yourself and those you love. And I’d absolutely buy an iPad as a retirement present.
I bought my iPad as a ‘getting back into work’ present, I think it makes sense equally as a retirement one! Hope the diabetes gets under control once you’ve got a bit more time and space.
Completely understand the paperwork and stress – been dealing with similar, although I’m still not sure if I’m leaving or not. Hope it all gets done soon and you enjoy that new iPad.
I hope you will find retirement eases your stress and improves your health. Change is always scary, but I found retirement to be the easiest change I ever made. Slipped right into it, and haven’t missed work one bit even though I loved it til I left.
Not a ramble at all, Miriam.
I loved reading your moment, and your artwork is just gorgeous!
As a recent retiree ( is that a word?? ) I know just how you feel about the paperwork! Your moment refrlects many of my thougts at the time too – but to have the chance to focus on yourself and your health shoudl be grabbed with both hands – sending all good wishes that your health does improve, and wishing you a very happy retirement. Also I am greatly in favour of treating yourself to an Ipad – it is just what I did – and I love it! Thanks for sharing your moment. J xx
As a recent retiree ( is that a word?? ) I know just how you feel about the paperwork! Your moment reflects many of my thougts at the time too – but to have the chance to focus on yourself and your health shoudl be grabbed with both hands – sending all good wishes that your health does improve, and wishing you a very happy retirement. Also I am greatly in favour of treating yourself to an Ipad – it is just what I did – and I love it! Thanks for sharing your moment. J xx